Fire

آری، آری ، زندگی زیباست زندگی آتشگهی دیرنده پا برجاست گر بیفروزیش، رقص شعله اش در هر کران پیداست ورنه، خاموش است وخاموشی گناه ماست سیاوش کسرایی / / / / / Life is like fire, can burns forever. If we turn it on we can see flame dances from far away, other wise its dark and thats our fault.

The girl I always wanted to be

ye jomleye bahal az ye doost:
vagti pesara khaak bar saar mishan azashoon badam miyad. vagti tahvil nemigiran doost dahstani tar nistan? ;)

A funy story
today I decided to stay in uni at do my over due assignemnt, I went to grandma's place at ate s.t food was good although it was omlet but gave me so much energy, I missed the primer of Firends and Will and Grace, just cuz my un finished assignemnt, any how I got to school....
I went to commenc lab ( Fish tank one) I stayed there till 1 that they closed, and then I find out they locked the door between lab and other part of uni, I was very surpriesd I didn't even know that there is a door over there, I start looking for an open door or s.o inside to get into uni, but as i was expected didn't find any, then I decided to go and talk to campus police,
what do u think happend?
they tld me there is no way I can get inside, at the first glance I thought they r joking, but " aghahe goft ke motghash ye pa darand" and then i said can i at least get my purce from lab to go home, and they agreed. and they said they gone get me a cab, and they did, when the cab came he told me it will be 7.5 $, i was shoocked i was expecting to be around 5$ I told the cab dricver " plz let me check" and he stopped the car! and told me if u didn't have money how did u want to go back?
by the way when I was waiting for the cab they gave me a pass that would cost 3$, so i didn't end up spending sourena's money, his cute, rare 10$ bill, which make me very happy:)

lesson's for today: Always have some cash in your packet, some night interesting things might happen!
by the way baghali jan khoodet ra yekam tahvil begir, khodoet ra adam hesab kon va karhayee ke dari va masooleshoon hasti ra mohem,

p.s to night while I was waiting for cab there was a guy who smelled so much of alchohol, and he start talking to me, and it was the first time i heard my self that " I'm in 4th yr" man thats some thing !

hey
:)
it was the 2nd time in a day that s.o told me i look good :)
first was a lady in washroom ( and I didn't have any make up on,) and the second time was a girl, that i don't know her name, a muslim mohajabe girl, she told me i look great, and my hair looks nicve, specially the high light, and she told me i look like i lost weight, too, that was lots of compliment, and and I wasn't wearing any make up that time too.
seems I should always wear brown, and maybe gooshe sheitoon kar, be arayesh ham khooshgelim, :)
I still haven't got any look or compliment from a guy yet, I know guyus here r diffrent, montreal told me that, and be ghoole pari, khoode adam ham bayd khat bede dige,
just remember this yr might be my last yr,
so do any thing u want baby girl :P
by the way i don't like when ppl thinks i look younger than my age.

Its 0.38 on Monday morning,
3p70, 3p30's assignment is still left,
Listening to Robbie Wiliams, I luv an angel instead.
Shokoofa was saying " ghadre khoodeto bedoon" khili adame mahi hsti.
madar bozorg is awake doing gym stuff at bed.
parmida is sleeping here.
40 cheragh is not working, athe font doesn't work any more.
Gorbeh is going to U.S tomoroow.
Sourena didn't coem this weekend.
Homajan got "larz" again.
mam was saying some stuff about Homajan and my granpa, I didn't get wat was the story,
Dad delesh gerefteh bood
Ashk tooy cheshmay maman boood,

Gorbeh was trying to be a help.
ghamhaye dar del mandeye ziady shekofteh shod,
sedahayee ke modatgahay ziadi khamoosh moondeh bood dar del, be vozooh shenideh meshod
faryad haye luv me, and respecT me, and I'm here.

There is no blame on any body,
Don't know who miss what.
Don't know if every body feel this way after yrs, probably they do.

Don't know how much luv left.
just can here the voice of u should have loved me.

how can u show it?
Is every body's problem is just for them?

os should we share? even though if they don't want to talk about that?
remember Rosh, she said, her old firends, wouldn't wait for her permissiobn, to come and share ... they would just come, even though if we she would have say no.

we still do the "tarof". maybe part of culture, the way we raised. mayeb we learned not to respect our own idea's and "wat we want", in the way that we listen to them, and respond them.
Par was asking if she should go for cheer leading, probably dad didn't say any thing to her.
HE was complaining y s.s was working a night shift in piza piza.

Gorb was saying cuz man saram ra menzadazam miam paieen, they shoudl have been proud of me, i told her, I don't know if its part of my "khariat" or not.
i deleted " nokhod farangis" pic"k". i sitll told gorbeh if she wanted to see it. and when she siad ok , show it to me, i didn't find any reason to do it.
i t should be over.

Gorb was saying its ok to get married with the first guy. i told her it would give me feeling of being a looser, she said its just in ur mind...
If i live once, i really want to be a player ;)
Gorb was saying its jsut the ppl and culture here, that make me feel that way,
I told to my self" I'm living in this culture, and it didn't left so much of " the other culture" any more.
hey maryam if u r reading these, don't continue any more, the things i wanted u to read was "[ Sun Sep 14, 01:48:13 PM | P sr"

i know I am the only one who can love me, all the time, no oher i can have that expectation.
when Gorb was talking to me, got to the result that Maybe I am the older sis, not par. maybe I should advice her some times,
Gorb said taht cuz Par has so much of self confidence things changed vice versa

There are some pepole:
There are some ppl, who might get sad and won't say any thing,

There are some ppl that might get affended just by smallest thing, that u won't even think.

there r these ppl who r important for u.
who r important for u, and u want to be importat for them.


ppl who wants to be loved.
all they want i s love

hey
I have this googooli feeling, or this "Za za zue" feeling, of being in love, :)
this cute googooli feeling, a clean neat feeling, feeling of white cover by white, which has a blue inside,
feeling of love, feeling of doing some thing nice, and big,
feeling of don't let the sun go down,
feeling of behesh begoo doosesh daram,
feeling of cute grean frog,
all those cute and nice memories of maryam, and all those days of talking at her place( that day which was tagarg- ( that was the bigest tagarg i've ever seen, (I'm living in Canada and i'm remembering those tagarg!), and then rain bow) - in abas abad, and niavaroon-
memories of roxana, whom first introduce me to queen, elton john, and "rain" of madoona,
Don't let the sun goes down on me

feeling of listening to Dido, ( or who she was? taht great voice?) and walking through a jungle, or walking on a shore at a beautiful moon light, no matter with whom
feeling of a walce on street, a walce that u can dance so chik to chik that u can hear his heart's beat. ( specially on a moon light)
feeling of being in grade 8.
smell of my Este Lauder perfume on my black jacket.
smell of Wings ( perfum)
[ Do u remember all perfume had another smel when I was younger? ]
smell of gole maryam


behesh begoo baharame , sabzie sabze zarame,
all those grade 8 stories.


we r in heaven

I hate bilogy
i hate chemistry
I hate physics
I hate medecine
i hate hospital
i hate dentestry
i hate Y.
I hate K
I hate Mome


I hate Y

I hate all the time i was in can
and I am spoiled

and fak every body